Wednesday, January 28, 2009
honey bunny! i miss you honey bunny! -pouts- so torturing. i havent seen you for 2 days! -pouts even more- honey bunny hurry come pick me up!! :(
Sunday, January 11, 2009
on top of the world (:
Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
Honey's put up at the top of the world (:
i love you baby <3
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
honey bunny,
i just read your posts. i'm so sorry i made you sad like that ): its all my fault. i know i ruined our christmas. i'm sorry honey bunny. it really breaks my heart to realise all these. honey i know i always promise you that i wont be naughty or unreasonable again but i always do it. i'm sorry. honey please forgive me? please?
honey, how are you now? are you there safely? are you eating well? are you playing well? got drink water anot? did you put sunblock before you go out in the sun? dont eat anything spicy okay. you cant take spicy food. did you bring lozenges with you? must sleep properly okay and cover yourself properly with your blankie. honey i miss you. i'm missing you like crazy here. i just cant seem to do anything right here without you. it seems like my heart has gone all the way to bintan with you. even as i close my eyes, all i see is you.
honey please be safe.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
i've been in bed practically the whole day
my body's dying on me.
great, just great.
but something made me feel a lil better
and thats why i'm up from bed typing this now
amanda's friend sherly goes to the same church
as honey.
she brought the book 'we believe' and showed me
my honey's testimony.
that made me feel a lil better.
honey i just wanna say,
i'm so proud of you darling.
i'm so proud as i read of how you've
grown under god's guidance to be the
person you are today.
all i want for christmas is you.
today's christmas eve but i don't feel
the festive spirit at all.
on the streets, there were couples everywhere.
that's normal, on this special day you're supposed
tobe with your loved ones.
so why wouldn't they lavish in the company of
each other and soak in the whole festive spirit right ?
i feel horrible inside,
with each couple that passes me by, it reminds me of
the fact that i'm not with my honey.
i was supposed to spend christmas with her but from
the looks of it, i don't think i'll be doing that this year.
i was so looking forward to doing so this year.
but who's to blame but me.
i practically ruined my christmas, ruined my honey's
christmas.
shut up melia shut up.
stop complaining, stop whining.
everything's your fault.
i've thought it over and over and oveer again.
argh!
why can't i figure it out.
is it really that hard?
am i really that insensitive?
its honey's feelings, i should know it best.
no wonder honey says she's super disappointed in me.
she has every reason to be.
my heart's breaking.
and i can literally feel it breaking bit by bit.
it hurts, it really hurts.
my body's taking a huge whipping.
i want my honey back.
i wnat my honey to stop being cold to me.
i want my honey.
i want my honey.
i want my honey.
i want my honey.
i want my honey.
i want my honey!
think melia
think
think
think and you will get it
think and this will be all over
think!
think and stop disappointing her
think!
argh.
i'm going crazy.
i need to get some real sleep soon.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
i miss you.
i haven talked to my honey bunny for 1 day,
but it feels as though its been a really long time.
i miss talking to my honey bunny, i really do.
why can't i do things right?
why do i make her angry over and all over again.
argh.
i hate myself.
think melia, think.
work that stupid brain of yours.
don't disappoint her again.
get her back !
argh you're such a useless piece of crap.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Monday, December 01, 2008
its always funny how i denied it in the first place and now i'm missing it, yearning for it.
life is a joke. maybe i chose it that way. i have no one to blame except for myself.
and i pray to God, please give me strength.